Hai, I'm sick of this, really sick. Why the hell must I always bring my sister around for her tuition?!?! Ytd I had to specially take mrt with her to tuition then go back ok, today must walk her to the mrt station. Why the hell must I do this?!?! Because I'm her older sister? Hai. I'm really sick lorrh. Is it because I'm 2 yrs older than her means I have to do this? Then can anyone tell me, why the hell am I always going other places alone? If I was a guy, and then since I'm always bringing her here and there and stuff, I can pass off as her hu hua shi zhe le. Hai. If this is all an older sister's responsibility, then I rather not be one, really. I'm sick of giving in to her, always having to do this kind of thing, tolerating her stupid temper, watch her not get scolded for being rude while I always do, watching her able to go out with her friends while I can't. Why the hell do I deserve this kind of treatment? My dad sees me as some investment that he pumps loads of money in and it would give him nth in return, that I'm forever the person who spoils the com(hey, I'm not ok), the naughtiest daughter he has(who's naughtier?!?!). I'm sick ok, really sick. And they always claim they don't like one of us more than the other. HAH, like real. It's damn obvious ok, they like her more. Nobody would prefer an idiot older daughter who wastes money and uses a lot of her parents money to one who is smarter and knows how to talk better and doesn't just shut up about her life. I'm sick, really. Can anyone understand? T-T I'm forever the one getting scolded ok, not her, not the younger cousins. IT'S ALWAYS ME. Even teaching her hw is my responsibility, what? She's so smart already, does she even need me? She says getting my old stuff is bad enough, tell me what's worse, this kind of treatment or getting my old books. My aunt favours her, and scolds me for not being as smart now. WTH? You know how much hell she gave me abt that? I cried for an hr ok, without her seeing. At least I have another aunt who likes me more. I hate this, really, but I can't change anything abt it. Hai. Sry abt this, I really need to vent this freaking anger.
12/07/2007 @ 6:25 PM
Wah, the holidays are so boring. I feel like going back to school eh. I'm having 2 hr piano lessons nxt wk, twice a wk eh. Gosh I'm so going to die. Regarding the choir concert performance, mr choo and esther all say very good orhh! ;] Haha, ting and sum said I was pouting thru out the performance, but am I expected to smile?!?! Wdv. We made a lot of noise though, think the choir teacher was quite unhappy over that. But anyway, we did a great job. xP Gah, got so much theory hw, dying le. Tmr need to go for my cousin's school carnival. Hope it's fun, or I'll be wasting one whole day. But I think it shld be larrh, shld give my fav cousin some support. ;] Been spending my days this wk at my aunt's house, don't have tt many injuries this time, guess rayson's beginning to like me. xP Can't really surf the net here though, only sometimes. I dunno how to do theory!!! Arhh!!!!!! I need help! ;[ Oh ya, I cut my hair btw people, got a frinch now, but my hair's in a mess. The hairdresser dunno cut until like what, so I'm going to get it fixed. I'll be getting back my short short hair again. == Hai, why must I always have that toot hairstyle?! ;[
